Thursday, January 12, 2012

nom nom.....NOT

Recently I found out that I am supposedly gluten intolerant. Do you know what this MEANS???? The following is a very brief list of items I can no longer consume:

Power bars
Processed meat like sausage/pepperoni/deli meats
Canned soups
Soy Sauce

And to top that off now I can't have oatmeal, dairy, caffeine, carbonation, and so on and so on. seriously.

of course most of the items listed above have 'gluten free' counter parts. Some are ok, some...ew.

Needless to say - I'M STARVING.


I've changed up my workout routine just a little. Here goes:

Monday - Vinyasa Yoga (a most awesome, intense workout - and very relaxing to boot!)
Tuesday - Run, Spin
Wednesday - Kickboxing
Thursday - Run, Body Pump
Friday - RELAX
Saturday & Sunday - Run, run....die.

I needed to back off cardio just a little and I gotta tell you - I love yoga. Getting a kick ass stretch in at the beginning of my week has made loads of difference in all my other workouts. This particular style of yoga is intense. It's unbelievable how much it's helped my upper body strength. A friend of mine told me that when you do cardio, you are only burning calories while you are working out. But when you strength train - it's a continuous burn for HOURS. Plus you burn more calories with muscle mass! So, I'm loving my new workout routine for multiple reasons!

so so many irons in the fire

Currently I am 'renovating' an old quilt, finishing mud & taping my hallway, and working on a recipe for my own protein bar. All this tucked into the spare moments between work/chores/exercising/kid-training/man-lovin'. damn! And I don't feel like I'm losing it either - a good start to 2012.

Thursday, December 1, 2011


So, have you ever wanted to be a part of something bigger than yourself? Bigger than the small little world you have unexpectedly created for yourself? Only you don't know how to go about it. And everyone else seems so much cooler, so much better put together. They have all the answers and they even seem to wear their clothes better than you. One day it's like a light goes on and you realize that everything you say is so stupid and irrelevant. All the things you have placed such importance on is ridiculously unimportant. So, I want to climb Mt. Everest. I want to work in a third world country. I want to feed the poor. I want to sew my own quilt and can my own food. I want to live in a cabin in the woods and not be concerned with gadgets and such. I want people to come into my home and I serve them hot coffee and warm apple pie. And they'll feel at home like they never want to leave. And when they do leave, they aren't the same......

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

do I? or don't I.....

So, it's been awhile. Truth be told I am constantly writing posts for my blog in my head. I just can't always get to my computer to share.

I have been contemplating my relationship with the other quite a bit. I have been thinking that something is lacking. I started thinking that I wanted some sign of commitment from him, that I was getting closer to letting go of my 'road blocks' and was starting to think I was ready for long term commitment....other than the unspoken understanding between us. I thought a ring would be a good place to start. Seriously, like just being engaged. Only the more I thought about it I recounted that thought. A ring, but with no date, just a symbol of commitment. The more I thought about this I began to realize that after being in a relationship with someone for the most part of eleven years, maybe I shouldn't feel so gun shy. Maybe this means I don't really want this at all. So, I'm thinking that I do want to find someone to grow old with, that the other is the 'interim'. Maybe this isn't fair, maybe it is. Maybe I'm the 'interim' for him too.

I wish I'd had all the answers early on. I would have realized then that it's about finding a friend first, all the other stuff comes later. With the other, the 'stuff' came first. After eleven years, I can now say we are friends. Are we great friends? maybe. But to find that one person I can connect with I think I am still searching for. That someone does not have to have the same political beliefs as I do, or the same religious beliefs that I do. There just has to be a flow of interest in each other, respect for one another, sense of caring and desire to make being together work. I am looking for that certain someone who will be a compliment to me and I to them.

For now the other is the interim, he might be the one...maybe, maybe not.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

life continues

It's that time again. The people I live with are either returning to school or beginning a new chapter of their education. Soon the house will be quiet and although I am stretched as thin as possible, I'll be sad.

The oldest will return to her home away from home - a place I myself am very envious of.
The middle will begin her journey away from home - but not too far.
And the boy will be the only one of our kind on campus now as he begins his junior year.

And as for me? I am finally taking a trip with the other. We will be wilderness backpacking soon. I am excited to get away and nervous at the same time. The other doesn't have to worry about little animals getting fed. His are left to their own devices in pastures a little greener than before as it finally rained. He doesn't have to worry about peoples away from home. And he doesn't have to worry about a boy getting a ride from school. But all that said, I am going to try my damnedest to relax and enjoy the fresh air, the silence, the solitude and pooping in the woods.

Monday, August 1, 2011

this is the story....

This is the story of your red right ankle
And how it came to meet your leg
And how the muscle bones and sinews tangled
And how the skin was softly shed
And how it whispered,
"Oh, adhere to me for we are bound by symmetry
And whatever differences our lives have been
We together make a limb."
This is the story of your red right ankle......

I love these lyrics. It's a song by the Decemberists who I am going to see in concert in exactly one week. Thank you Danny for introducing me to the Decemberists.

I have no idea what this song is supposed to mean, but for me it's about a lover and how the lover is like a part of the persons body all intertwined with their own. Anyway, I like it and I really hope they sing it at the concert even though they probably won't because it's an older song.